It has always been difficult for me to feel like I could just be myself. Through years of self-discovery I have gained certainty on just how weird and unique I really am. I’m a psychic teacher, an artist and an entrepreneur. This is who I am and how I strive to earn a living. I’m just at a point in my life where I can no longer do what I am supposed to. I HAVE to do what I LOVE.
In this world it is not always an easy path for those who want to be their own bosses, teach meditation classes and earn a living as a creative. I suppose my road is difficult, but I would not have it any other way. This is who I am and I love my identity.
I remember a time when it was incredibly easy to be myself. It was a time when I was modeling and learning to be an actor. I wasn’t afraid of being seen or being heard. As a matter of fact, I enjoyed it. I felt comfortable. I want that back and the only way I will get that back is by allowing myself to be seen and heard again. Whether it is teaching classes, playing music, doing stand-up comedy or writing – I just need to put myself out there. The issue with putting yourself out there is that you can be judged. I go through periods where I don’t really resist judgement and its easy for me to take risks and then there are other times where I am just burnt out on failure.
I love the path of an artist. It is messy and far from perfect. It doesn’t make any damn sense. It’s the experiences we have that drive us to create. Musicians write songs about heartache, comedians bring light to darkness, painters paint how they are feeling and writers write stories weaving their truth with fiction. The more experiences we have, the more we create. It’s not about how many books we have read or how many classes we have taken or how perfect of a life we have lived, it is about the realness of life. Its the moments we were able to be present, for better or worse and how we felt at the time.
Sometimes it takes courage to be yourself. Others may not understand you. People tend to be afraid of what they don’t understand. It is easier to reject something you don’t understand. However you are different, just embrace it. I’m the kind of guy that loves getting tattoos, having a mohawk with feathers in his hair and listens to metal. I also love to meditate, write poetry and ponder new business ideas. I don’t exactly make sense. I notice that when I am expressing myself, that is when I am the happiest. I loved doing stand-up comedy for the short period that I did it. I felt free to say whatever I wanted. I think that is why I love writing. I get to say what I want. If people like it great and if they don’t – oh well.
We are all unique in our own way. It is what makes living on this planet so much fun. I think it would be kind of boring if everyone was the same. The more you embrace your unique qualities, the more you shine. So go ahead – shine on!