When I was in my early twenties I was lucky enough to learn a lot about my identity, dreams and truth. BUT, just because I had that awareness and certainty did not mean I had everything figured out…
When I was younger and was pursuing my independence and / or dreams, I had the idea in my head that it really wasn’t going to take very long to achieve my goals. Well, I was very wrong, haha. I always knew I had to go after a dream, but because of my naivety, when I would fail at something I would simply move on to the next thing. It took me a while to realize that it didn’t matter what I chose to pursue – I had to be committed and needed PATIENCE.
This is where I am at. I’m playing the long game. I am being patient. What I am working on is growing slowly, but I know that if I keep doing it, keep improving – walls are going to get knocked down and I will get to where I want to be. I’m okay with this. In society we tend to think that well if you hit a certain age and you haven’t achieved what you wanted then forget it. Not me. What I am trying to work on is just enjoying the process, just enjoying the journey. The moment you achieve your goal may not be very long, but the time it takes to reach your goal could take months and even years. I want to make sure I am happy in the process and not just at the finish line. To be honest though, isn’t a finish line just a new beginning?
I’m becoming wiser and stronger. A few of my greatest teachers are meditation, relationships and life experience. I’m learning when I am failing. I have a high permission level to fail. This is my secret to cultivating success. Holding onto perfect pictures sometimes will lead to an inevitable explosion. Perfection doesn’t exist, especially when you are aiming high in life. The path to success is quite messy. My life is a beautiful mess. It is not for anyone else to understand, but myself.
My perspective is shifting and I am seeing my life differently. I looked more at it as a race to a finish line. Now I see it more as an adventure, a series of mountains that I am climbing. I look forward to climbing these mountains, as much as standing on the peaks. What I am most excited about though, is right here, right now. Present time. That feeling that life isn’t good if I’m not at the finish line isn’t a good way to live. Becoming wiser and acquiring patience is what brings me peace. It helps me find the here and now.
2.21.19 | CA