If you haven’t already noticed, I have a great affinity for expressing myself. Today I felt a minor breakthrough. It feels as though I am going deeper into my voice. For most of my life I have kept quiet. Speaking in front of people is something I love, but also terrifies me. My beliefs never matched my environment, but now that we are traveling full-time, things feel different. When I am traveling, I feel free. When I feel free, I tend to want to express myself more, especially through writing. And the more I write, the more I get comfortable with saying what I think and how I feel. I also realize the more comfortable I get, I am either going to inspire people or offend people.
I wrote a long short story called Slaves to Society. It is based on true events, but is weaved with fiction. It is honest, raw and vulgar. I didn’t hold back. It felt really good writing it. It feels good to write in general and right now I am on a writing high. I never write to hurt peoples feelings or to make anyone feel bad. That’s not my intention. My goal as a writer is to clear my mind and heart. It is to light people up and make them think differently. I want to inspire others. Someone I find inspirational is Gary Vaynerchuck. He is a very successful entrepreneur, author and motivational speaker. He doesn’t say what you want to hear, he says what you need to hear. Some people may find him harsh or offensive. I find him refreshing. He cuts through the bullshit.
What are some of the most difficult things in life? Maybe it’s being honest with yourself. Maybe it is just being yourself. Sometimes we can be afraid to speak honestly, because it may hurt someones feelings. Sometimes we avoid showing a side of ourselves because it is not accepted by a group of people. Sometimes we lie to ourselves to avoid the pain of starting over. I’m not perfect and I have struggled with all of these topics. It is why I am so passionate about embracing my truth and following my dreams.
My spiritual teacher once told my class that he hoped our lives fell apart. That is a statement that can be viewed as harsh and offensive. What he meant was that he hoped that any of the lies that we were holding onto would fall apart. That is one of the reasons we were in the class in the first place. We all wanted to see our truth and dissolve the lies we were living. We all wanted to live more of an authentic life. Sometimes it is uncomfortable admitting to yourself and others that you are living a lie. Sometime it is difficult being honest.
As I take this deep dive into my voice I know I will inspire and I will offend. I know some people will love what I say and also hate what I say. Right now I am neutral to it all. I am just going to keep writing because the more I change from within, the more of an impact I can have on the world. Standing in your truth, that is how I see people changing the world.
Find Your Freedom,
5.10.18 | NJ
I had a breakthrough today. I could feel my heart opening and feeling was returning to me like a numb hand getting blood flowing back to it. My heart opened and a wave of emotion poured out. I miss my family, I miss my clients and I miss the dogs we walked. I am really proud of what Heather and I created, but I do look forward to building a new brand and having new adventures. I also look forward to strengthening my relationships; with my wife, with my family, our dog lucy, our cat thor, etc.
Yesterday was incredibly stressful; loading the camper, more downsizing and making sure we were safe to tow. The drive wasn’t too bad, but trying to get our 5th wheel in our parking space at the campground was very frustrating. Without knowing it our break away cable disconnected and our RV breaks locked up. We had no idea why we were stuck. It’s kind of funny now, but it certainly wasn’t yesterday. Because of this we ended up getting help from a seasoned driver. We were really grateful for his help.
After that it was time to get our RV level, which we did not end up doing. This part may have been just as irritating as the parking situation. Due to running out of patience and daylight we decided to call it quits and dealt with the awkward imbalance in the RV. Yesterday was not only stressful for us, but also our pets. They were not too happy. But… we all survived.
Today was much better. Our camper is much more level (not perfect), our cat and dog have finally settled and the internet worked. So at this point we know Heather can teach English online. I still have to work on a YouTube video and see how it is uploading. Hopefully that works out. Today I did a reading and I have to say I am liking our office. Even if it is small and absent of our comfortable office chairs – it works.
What I have learned so far is that I don’t know shit. Haha. I have a lot to learn, but that is okay. I am in a position where I can learn and that excites me. I think after our experience yesterday we will accumulate more blocks for the leveling and stabilization process and we may try to find pull-through sites at campgrounds due to our camper being pretty long.
Much to learn, much more adventures to be had and more blogs on the way. Thanks for reading, have a kick ass night!
Find Your Freedom,
5.2.18 | NJ
What will it feel like? To break through the wall, that is unbreakable…
The wall of limitation, the wall that speaks to me saying, “dreams aren’t real.”
When the wound has healed and it’s time to pull the last staple
We live not to just know our dreams, but to bring them down and feel
So may your power not be over others, because oh brothers…
The power to transform your life may be the single greatest thing you can do
Which will not only send a ripple through your own aura, but the Earths aura too
For when you embrace your soul totality and ground, it may affect more than you
Living in your heart and representing your truth
You will be the inspiration for others to be themselves
And wouldn’t that be a great accomplishment?
Opposed to the trophy collecting dust on the shelf
A breakthrough for me, a breakthrough for you
What will it feel like? To breakthrough…