I might as well just start off by saying, if you do get high, it doesn’t bother me at all. This isn’t a blog post about why people shouldn’t do drugs or alcohol, it’s a post about why I don’t.
I’ve spent a good part of my life, out of my body. The culprits: drugs, alcohol, depression, boredom, etc. Now, what does it mean to be out of your body? Well, when we sleep we are out of are bodies. When we get drunk, we are typically out of our bodies. Even when we are day dreaming, we are out of our bodies. You ever see someone with the thousand yard stare? That is what it looks like when someone is out of there body. Now, there is nothing wrong with being out of your body. I enjoy dreaming, but I don’t want to be out of my body all the time.
So, what does it mean to be in your body? Well it’s different for everyone, but I know when I experience the following, I am moving back in my body; being in nature, falling in love, having new experiences, exercise, practicing singing, etc. Your physical body is always in present time. When you are with someone you love or are doing something that you are passionate about, your spirit and body meet. To me, that is magic; when all the bullshit fades away, your senses are heightened and you feel alive. My drug is feeling my own energy flowing through my body. It never gets old.
What did get old for me were the hangovers, the clouded mind and the way my body felt after smoking a cigarette. I started to realize that if my body could have a dream, it would be better health. If I could make that happen, it would make it easier to fuel MY dreams; traveling, teaching, creating, performing, etc.
I’m a very spiritual individual and often when people think about spirituality the topic of out of body experiences arise. When I got into spirituality, that was my primary interest too, but over time I quickly learned that having an in the body experience was where its at. Sometimes I wish I could find the words to describe what it is like after leaving a meditation class or what it is like to just have received a healing. It’s just something you would have to experience for yourself to understand, but being in my body, being present – that in itself is a dream of mine. To sink into my skin, to be in my heart, to feel my energy flowing, to be grounded and starting out my eyes at this beautiful and fucked up world we live in… yeah, thats a dream of mine.